Usually when I am training I sleep really well, but now here I am writing and not sleeping. I am up at 4:30am to hit the gym, and by the end of the day I am wiped. But tonight I am not sleepy. I get like this sometimes...pensive. Just thoughts running through my head that I cannot shut off. My workouts seem to curb the incessant need to think but today my mind has taken off.
So what do I obsesses about? Regular everyday things. Am I being a good mom? Do I spend enough time with son? How can I be a better teacher? Am I reaching them? Am I being a good wife? I wonder if this a girl thing. Maybe a type A thing? Fitness - do I think about fitness? Yes. When I am at the gym, I can be working out, and contemplating new moves for my routine. How can I change it? How can I make it better? Luckily since I work out early no one is usually around, and I can be seen bopping to my music, trying new dance moves in the middle of a set. Those who go to the gym frequently at 4ish are used to my quirkiness.
It does help to write all my thoughts down. I have lists for my lists. Oh, yeah, gotta make a list. A to-do lists. Then I cross off those items accomplished, and re-do my list so that it is fresh. There is nothing like a fresh to-do list. In the morning, again between sets, I am making lists. I do seem to get a lot accomplished while working out in the morning. Or at least I am able to put structure to my day.
As I write this, I really don't have much on my to-do list right now. Maybe that is the problem -- I don't have enough work to do. My routine is done, I am on track with my diet (actually way ahead), all my appointments are made for the Arnold - hotel, flight, check, check. I even made my flight for Nationals today. Nationals is in August. Never to early to cross something off my future to-do list.